Overwhelmed
It does not take much to overwhelm me. As an anxiety sufferer, and I make no secret of that, I am used to having the crushing feeling of being overwhelmed descend on me like a sack of shit. I obviously have no comparison to what being overwhelmed feels like to an 'ordinary (if indeed there is such a thing) person. But to me it is an all encompassing feeling that can come on quite suddenly or can spend it's time brewing in the back of my mind before rearing forward like a greyhound after a rabbit. I am aware that I have now rambled for at least two paragraphs...therein lies the problem. My anxiety induced feeling of overwhelmed comes hand in hand with a helpless, confused procrastination. I can be 100% overwhelmed by the mess in my kitchen and 100% unable to do anything but wonder aimless around in circles perhaps picking up a dirty plate and putting it down again. Anyway, the main reason I wanted to write today is because after about 2 years if being mainly anxiety free (is